Day 341

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Dear Syed,

Do you know that I went to your house today?

You were not at home. And I have to do what I have to. With my 2 girlfriends' extraordinary support.

I wish I can see you. But it does not matter. I just want to give back all your stuff. There is no use to keep it. It will only bring back memories into my mind. I want to burn it. But I don't have the heart to do it.

I was scared at first. My 2 girlfriends who knocked your front door. I was quite surprised by them. She even parked in the parking lot behind your Suzuki Swift. Kakak was the one who opened the door. Seeing her friendly face making me more calm. She asked me why I haven't come to your house anymore. I have no answer for it. So i just smiled. She invited me in.

The moment I stepped into the house, all the memories rushing into my mind. The living room where we used to watch television together, the dining table where once I had dinner with your dad, you and Amir and not to forget the kitchen where we had our cupcake baking sessions together.

Kakak let me put the stuff in your room myself. Please don't be mad at her. Your room is still the same. The bed with the same bedsheet I've seen before. You never change the chair. The only thing missing was Blue. I did not see it anywhere. May he is at someplace nice.

I miss being there. At your house. With you.

J.