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Syed,
I just could not believe it. You brought her. To my convocation.
I have been trying to accept the fact you are seeing someone since the day i found out about it. But seriously do you really need to show your affection towards your girlfriend today at MY graduation day. My family was there. My friends were there. Does it ever comes to your mind the idea that i have feelings?
Knowing the fact that you finally meet someone to replace me is one thing. When you know i waited for you. When you are fully aware the reasons of it. To see you two together in front of my face is another big thing. You knew how it felt when Azura left you for someone else. So you should know how my feelings would be seeing you holding her hands.
I can totally accept it that you were coming for Iyas. But is it a necessity to bring your girlfriend when she has nothing to do with Iyas and you knew I was going to be there, considering me and Iyas were coursemates. I know you have life. She has her life. And you both can do whatever you want with your life. But i too have my own. That is my graduation day. Not yours. Not hers. It is suppose to be one of the greatest memory of my life. Could not you be more considerate thinking of that fact. Now whenever people asking me about my graduation. All that play in my mind is, "Great. My ex came with his new girlfriend. Walking hand in hand in front of my family and friends."
Don't worry . I have let you go the moment i saw what a jackass you have become. Seeing you with her really hits me. Knowing the fact that you once held my hands, and then seeing you there holding hers made me feel so stupid to even let you touching me at the first place. I should not have let you into my life and lie about love. Soon, I will became nothing more than a fading memory to you. It reminds me to all the things that my professor once advised me. All of it are true. I should have listen to her instead of arguing with her and continue to trust all your words.
Now it is not the part of losing you that hurt me so much. But the fact of me being stupid to actually believe in you, your words, your so called love. It is true when they said why should you believe when there is lie hidden inside the word.
I hope u will never forget the fact that i am a human. A girl. A girl that you ignored for months. Do you think I deserve all of this? I wish i can be happy for you. But how am i going to do that when you do not even think about my happiness.
J.