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A year has passed. It seems my love for you never fades.
Today is entirely spent on bed. I cannot get up at all. I sleep all day since last night. I do not get bath. I skip all the meals. And all the prayers. It is not something i am proud of. I just do not have the drive or energy to do anything.
I do not know who else to blame but myself. If only i was more patient. Then we will never have to go through this. I will never have to go this day without you. If I do not do what I did, you may still be here. I really miss you.
The shittest part is I have sent over Bunny, the cards, the perfume, the T-shirt and everything else. My laptop is still in sick mode. I cannot get through all our photos. I don't have anything except these memories stored in my brain. Which seems will be staying there for a long time. Longer than all the knowledges i learn in medical school.
And i cannot reach you by any means. You deleted me from FB and YM. You changed your phone number. I kind of has predicted all that will happen since the day you deleted that photo album of ours. It is just a matter of time. What's next? Change your name, your address.
I sound like a loser.
I hate today.
I wish I can press rewind, and rewrite every lines.
J.
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