Dear Syed,
It was raining heavily today when Iffah and I decided to go out to JJ. Since i have few umbrellas that i had never use before, i decided to use it today although the hostel and the parking lot is only few metres in distance. I used the blue polka dot umbrella, the one my Japanese friend bought for me. And i lend Iffah my purple umbrella which i never thought i have. The moment she opened it, my mind twirled around thinking where the hell this umbrella comes from because i was not aware of its existence. It was new and never been opened. It has this cute design of flowery pattern at the margin.
Then suddenly your face came into mind. And Slim River. There was this one time when u came to visit me and you brought some stuff with you, like foods, hangers, slippers etc, to make sure i feel comfortable living there. One of the things that you bought for me was this dark purple umbrella because Slim River was hot at that time. Funnily, i never used that umbrella. That is why i have no memory of a beautiful dark purple umbrella with pinkish flowery images stored in my brain.
The next thing i know i started to re-missing you. See, I cannot stand being mad at you. Even for a day. But it has been months you stay being mad at me.
Why is that sayang? Did I make a very big overzelaous sinful mistake to you that makes it hard for you to forgive me and forget about it? Of course you said you forgive me but instead of forget it, you decided to forget me.
It feels weird. One time i feel so close to you that i believe we breathe in the same composition of air. Now, i feel like a stranger to you. 10 years from now, you may even forget my name.
It sounds sad. Don't you think so?
It is not fine but it is okay. You can do whatever you want. I don't want to be that little girl you hate who thinks she can have anything she wants in life by manipulating people's emotion. That is what I understand about Crying Lightning.
I had a bad day today and i feel so tired.
Goodnight.
Love,
J.
The next thing i know i started to re-missing you. See, I cannot stand being mad at you. Even for a day. But it has been months you stay being mad at me.
Why is that sayang? Did I make a very big overzelaous sinful mistake to you that makes it hard for you to forgive me and forget about it? Of course you said you forgive me but instead of forget it, you decided to forget me.
It feels weird. One time i feel so close to you that i believe we breathe in the same composition of air. Now, i feel like a stranger to you. 10 years from now, you may even forget my name.
It sounds sad. Don't you think so?
It is not fine but it is okay. You can do whatever you want. I don't want to be that little girl you hate who thinks she can have anything she wants in life by manipulating people's emotion. That is what I understand about Crying Lightning.
I had a bad day today and i feel so tired.
Goodnight.
Love,
J.
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