To: SAK
Subject: Please read this.
You,
I am sorry for everything I did. For hurting you. I know it was wrong. But I was very mad and unstable emotionally. I missed u so much. I miss us. You have no idea. You must think I made it up. But im not. My heart hurts when u started to ignore me, deleted me from your FB. But of course I shouldn’t have done what I did. All those hurtful words. I said it to get back at you.
I just re-read all the conversations that we had online. Dated since 4th may 2009. We were talking about equations. It was so great. We were happy. I was happy. There were morning chat. Night chat. Skype. Calls. And then suddenly, everything became wrong. Very wrong. Comes the fight. The argument. It was so painful. I don’t know what happen. I cant find where was the turning point. And we’ve followed the wrong path too far. So far that we cant turn back anymore. Now, its hard to reverse back, isn’t it?
But it makes me think of something, I used to love you. Why the hell I did something so horrible to hurt u? U were so great. U helped me with SSM. U were there all the time help me distressing. U took me out to eat. Send and pick me from Slim River. Make me happy, etc. We should have stick to the holiday plan. You were such a good person. It's just the time and condition makes people change.
After yesterday, I know I had ruined all the chances I may get. Don’t worry. I wont disturb you anymore. I will try not to disturb you. At least. Even if the PMS is killing me. I will try hard. I know I have to let this relationship go. We fell in love before. But then, we broke up. There were reasons behind it. Awful reason I don’t remember and do not want to remember.
I know I must accept the fact that you will never love me again. People change. We changed. And its okay, to let it go, rite? Every relationship has its lesson and it will make me stronger. It suppose to, cuz everybody said so.
Furthermore, I want to graduate next year. I really do. I don’t want to repeat. I have done enough with this 5 long years. I want to have holidays. I want to finish housemanship early. I know I have so much to catch up. And I need to focus. So I have to work to get better. I know I can do it. I just need to push myself harder.
While i am still emotionally stable, I want to apologize for everything I did. Accept the fact. Move on. Remember nothing except the good memories. And I hope you are doing good in your life. Seriously I wish so. Especially after all the pain I cause you. Plus, I want to be doing good too. Good condition. Good mood. Hate is not good. It is like a curving blade. If it hurts you, it will hurt me too. And life is karma. We ruined people's life. Our life will be ruined too. It is just a matter of time.
So, may you have a good life!
Goodbye.
Subject: Please read this.
You,
I am sorry for everything I did. For hurting you. I know it was wrong. But I was very mad and unstable emotionally. I missed u so much. I miss us. You have no idea. You must think I made it up. But im not. My heart hurts when u started to ignore me, deleted me from your FB. But of course I shouldn’t have done what I did. All those hurtful words. I said it to get back at you.
I just re-read all the conversations that we had online. Dated since 4th may 2009. We were talking about equations. It was so great. We were happy. I was happy. There were morning chat. Night chat. Skype. Calls. And then suddenly, everything became wrong. Very wrong. Comes the fight. The argument. It was so painful. I don’t know what happen. I cant find where was the turning point. And we’ve followed the wrong path too far. So far that we cant turn back anymore. Now, its hard to reverse back, isn’t it?
But it makes me think of something, I used to love you. Why the hell I did something so horrible to hurt u? U were so great. U helped me with SSM. U were there all the time help me distressing. U took me out to eat. Send and pick me from Slim River. Make me happy, etc. We should have stick to the holiday plan. You were such a good person. It's just the time and condition makes people change.
After yesterday, I know I had ruined all the chances I may get. Don’t worry. I wont disturb you anymore. I will try not to disturb you. At least. Even if the PMS is killing me. I will try hard. I know I have to let this relationship go. We fell in love before. But then, we broke up. There were reasons behind it. Awful reason I don’t remember and do not want to remember.
I know I must accept the fact that you will never love me again. People change. We changed. And its okay, to let it go, rite? Every relationship has its lesson and it will make me stronger. It suppose to, cuz everybody said so.
Furthermore, I want to graduate next year. I really do. I don’t want to repeat. I have done enough with this 5 long years. I want to have holidays. I want to finish housemanship early. I know I have so much to catch up. And I need to focus. So I have to work to get better. I know I can do it. I just need to push myself harder.
While i am still emotionally stable, I want to apologize for everything I did. Accept the fact. Move on. Remember nothing except the good memories. And I hope you are doing good in your life. Seriously I wish so. Especially after all the pain I cause you. Plus, I want to be doing good too. Good condition. Good mood. Hate is not good. It is like a curving blade. If it hurts you, it will hurt me too. And life is karma. We ruined people's life. Our life will be ruined too. It is just a matter of time.
So, may you have a good life!
Goodbye.
From: SH
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